I have to give two presentations on the next two hours. I realized I haven’t had to do anything like this since college started.

But the last time I had to speak in front of a group there were at least 4,000 people in the audience.

Yeah, I think I’ve got this.

I just want to sit with old friends and laugh. Is that too much to ask? I don’t understand today’s youth as much as I might have thought that I did.

If I can survive through December 3rd I will be golden. Within a three hour period I have a GT1000 presentation, the presentation for my last English assignment ever, and my last homework assignment of the semester due. Let’s just say that I haven’t made considerable progress on any of those. Friday will also bring quite a test that might make or break things. The weekend will be overwhelming and too much to comprehend. And one week from now it will be finals week.

How did I end up here so quickly?

I sincerely hope that if there were something I could change about myself to better either myself or my relationships with other people, that someone would tell me about it.

I’m terrified of the fact that everyone in the world secretly despises me or thinks I’m a jerk, but no one has the guts to tell it to my face.

I don’t think I’m a pessimist quite yet, but optimism is definitely gone. Falling towards nihilism.

I wish I weren’t bland.